Fears

We went for my 30 week check up today and everything is going terrific.  I feel pretty good for being in my 3rd trimester, Isabella Joy decided to move off of my diaphram last night (I can now breath again), the girls are at my parents for this week and next, and then Dr. Chapman dropped the bomb on me.  He told me that he could not schedule my c-section anymore than 7 days out because of hospital policy. I almost lost it. 

I have held back all my fears about this delivery until tonight.  Things did not go well with Hope's delivery and my scheduled c-section did not go as planned.  I went into labor, they had a hard time stopping it to do the c-section, and then my epidural did not work in the middle of the c-section.  Not fun to say the least! 

I guess you could say that my fear is all of it happening again.  It is a rational fear but one I was not thinking was going to be factor.  So now... I pray! I pray that if I go into labor sooner that I get to the hospital sooner and things don't go down that road again. I pray that God calms my fears and I am at peace with it.  Whew.... here we go!