Fears

We went for my 30 week check up today and everything is going terrific.  I feel pretty good for being in my 3rd trimester, Isabella Joy decided to move off of my diaphram last night (I can now breath again), the girls are at my parents for this week and next, and then Dr. Chapman dropped the bomb on me.  He told me that he could not schedule my c-section anymore than 7 days out because of hospital policy. I almost lost it. 

I have held back all my fears about this delivery until tonight.  Things did not go well with Hope's delivery and my scheduled c-section did not go as planned.  I went into labor, they had a hard time stopping it to do the c-section, and then my epidural did not work in the middle of the c-section.  Not fun to say the least! 

I guess you could say that my fear is all of it happening again.  It is a rational fear but one I was not thinking was going to be factor.  So now... I pray! I pray that if I go into labor sooner that I get to the hospital sooner and things don't go down that road again. I pray that God calms my fears and I am at peace with it.  Whew.... here we go!

Belly Shot

Bear with me here... I am going to show my big belly!  I love how the girls are so taken with my tummy and talking to their baby sister.  They talk to her and ask her how her day has been.  They sing to her and tell her stories.  It just melts my heart.  I can't wait to see them with Isabella Joy!  I can't wait to see them cuddle her, sing to her, make her giggle, help teach her to crawl, say prayers with her, etc.... I could go on forever. 

Tonight, Hope was singing to my belly and talking to her sister and Daddy caught it on camera.  Here is the sweet picture...

Sweet big sister!

A kiss for the baby sister Bella Joy!